Finally done with the template, lucky in the past i saved some of the blogskins, and edit here and there. Well.. i guess its really a magical thing. when mama lim words finally wakes me up and when you realize that yes the only way is to end it and u decided to do it, it seems like something is off your chest. I felt there as if there's nothing squashing me already. But.. i remember i dreamed about him. quite long ago i guess?! in that dream, i confess and ask for the answer. but in the dream the ending is good. so i guess even me myself subconsciously still thinks that ok if reality is not like that but at least in dream it is sweet HAHAHAHAHAHA. but i don't dare to say it's 100% gone.. but at least, i know, something is off my chest already and perhaps it will really go off soon :)